He is Faithful

troubled waters spill and tip inside my heart of hearts,
but You are faithful.
i'm unsteady and unsure,
but You are faithful.
i cannot face myself in the mirror,
but You are faithful.
i cannot forgive myself today,
but You remain faithful.
i fall into doubt and even act on it,
but You are faithful.
i've blinded myself by believeing what is untrue,
but You are faithful.
i'm falling
and failing
and a creature of complete stupidity and habit,
but You, my God, are faithful.

i lift my head to the skies and let the tears fall down my cheeks,
because i'm alone on the train even with these people around me.
and yet You are with me, beside me,
a part of who i am,
and of everything i'll ever be.
You see me as a whole,
the string of my life stretched out in it's short space in time,
and You love me.
all the awful things i've done, and yet to do,
and You still love me.

i don't deserve this love,
oh Lord,
this amazing faithfulness.

but that's the point.
that's what You're all about.